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So today is my official second day at work since training ended.

So far I've been to 2 appts: one with my parents and the other one with da gu gu.
Along the way, I have also attempted to make appts with all the other relatives.

As everybody knows, I am an introvert, I am someone who doesn't talk much or doesn't know how to talk much with other people. As I make calls and go for appts, there is one mentality that I feel some people have that disturbs me A LOT.

People think that just because I am an introvert and because I am who I am, they think that sales is not a suitable job for me and that I won't be able to make it. Precisely because I am someone who does not know how to talk all the more I should learn how to step out of my comfort zone to try new things? Isn't it precisely because I am not someone who knows how to talk I should continue to learn and grow in this job to be a better version of myself? Yeah I can't do it now, but who knows I might surprise you the next time. All I ask for is a bit of support. Even if you are not interested in what I am sharing, can you at least have a better attitude towards what I am doing and give me an opportunity to listen to what I have to say or take time to look at my improvement, instead of just making your judgement straight in day 1. I am serious in improving and support is all I need and all that really helps at this point in time.

Another stereotype is that many sales persons are unethical or all they are trying to do is hardsell. All they want to do is to earn money and sell to you. NO! I believe that when myself or some of my colleagues introduce a product to you, we want to hear an honest opinion from you. We want to know why you aren't interested in that product because we want to know if its a misconception, or if there really is something lacking in the product or anything else. So, when we say you can be frank to you, you can be frank to us. There are genuine sales persons that exist out there and I hope you believe me because this shows the kind of trust you put in me.

So yeah... more setbacks then success so far. I can't deny that I feel discouraged and worn out each time. But I am really thankful for the colleagues around me who constantly provide guidance, support, and encouragement to each other.

So now, what I am trying to do is to not be disheartened and discouraged by any setbacks. Instead, be more motivated to find out more, more motivated to work even harder to prove to the people out there who didn't believe in you wrong. Don't be discouraged, just fight harder and stronger.

JIAYOU

/update/ Just saw the previous post about courage when I went to view my blog.
Courage -- I think I can safely say I have more courage than before. This is my first step towards self-improvement and I will get better.



How do you show yourself to the world?

I would love to be that noisy, confident, child-like person again.
Weird thing is, I don't even know when and why I started building shields around me.
Then, how do I break them down?






2.5 years have passed. I no longer love you like I did but yet, you still come to my mind at times.


















Band started yesterday! But oh wait, I no longer need to go back.

But still, went back to visit my dearest saxophonists. Gosh, these guys are so sweet it makes me miss band. Good thing they were having sectionals, hung around for a while and listened to the Sec1's akiyama. Which my dearest ASL claimed they can slur, and in the end I caught so many mistakes, smack his butt sia. Never mind, give him time to learn how to listen.
Unknowingly, I started teaching the Sec1s, shit gotta get use to me not being the SL when I'm around them. I didn't realised the Sec1 was scared of me :/ until Keith said so. Think I'm too strict for her/them.
Gotta go back as much as I can afford, hehe. Gonna miss band so much.

Anyways, realised I haven't post anything on graduation yet. So here goes..

Went back after focus for my last day of band that Monday. That day main band was still going on, so I just went to my seat and sat there listen to them getting scolded. I didn't know what to do, just sat there without my instrument, and it feels so weird.
For what seems like more that what it should be, they finally ended practice and we took like a super long time to settle down cause everyone was talking to each other and the graduates were trying out different instruments. Played with Najah's trumpet and Cheryl's euphonium, and woah! I can buzz (?)! Then after that, all the graduates gathered and presented Mr Tan our graduation gift to him. He received a certificate of excellence, a straw board with all the letters from us and a RSSB'11 photo. HAHA he's like so happy he kept laughing so cute haha! When the band finally settled down, we began talking and blah. So I just sat there with my batchmates until it was my turn and basically crap. I swear 80% of the time I didn't know what I was talking about.
And we had pizza at the canteen and interactive session! So busy giving out letters. Man, I received a piglet from QM Kaimeng and a hug-size bear from my section, so sweet! And also, manymany other sweet and cute letters!
Continued taking photos with my section after we've been chased out of school. Jo said, "I swear they are crazy about you". Made me quite happy ah, haha! Most bonded and awesome section.

So, that's officially my last day in band as a normal member.

Suddenly, that's the end of three and half years in Band. Like, woah! Where did the rest of the time go?
I remember year one was a nightmare, I came in with totally no music background. For some reasons or another, I'm not so good a player as compared to the rest and was often invited out of the music room to practise with my senior T.T Then I got slightly better, but still not too good even though kk stopped inviting me out of the room. So, I sat in the FIRST row in junior band with kk DIRECTLY IN FRONT of me, wth why me again?! Naturally, I was damn scared and kept staring at the score so I won't make so much mistakes. But, it doesn't seem to be of any use cause I'm always the first to be picked out for playing something wrong ._. Sometimes, kk scold me for staring at the score so much too, like, "Is xiaozhu on the score? Keep staring at it for what!" and then I'll be like "I don't like xiaozhu!"
In sec2, I became the sec1 I/C. There's nothing much about this actually, just that I hate it when I'm almost always the one making announcements and talking to the Sec1s.
And out of a sudden, I became the SL in sec3. Wasn't taught anything, just thrown into that stupid position which I used to hate so much cause I didn't know what to do at first. Like, how to listen, how to conduct, how to manage the section. Slowly, I started picking up a teaching style of my own and, my section is awesummmm! Yay a lot people praise my section you know! Kekeke.
Sometimes, I still miss the times with my seniors. It always feels better to have someone on top of you, to guide you, than always being the one everyone in the section looks up to.

There's so much to write and say about band, but I will probably take up too much time.
So bye, RSSB.
















Humility and Initiative.