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Saturday, 11th February 2012. Sunny.

Dear Dairy,

I'm not here to talk about flag day although it is flag day today. But because it's the most boring fund raising programme ever, I shall not talk more about it. Oh but before that, I got euro dollar in my tin can, so cool! Hehehe!

This few months, I've experienced quite a number of deaths around me, be it acquaintance, instructors or prominent figures. Founder of Apple, Korea's leader and even a founding leader in Singapore. Then, someone in my primary school. And now, the latest, one of my YTSA instructor. All these people are not really dear to me. But, all this incidents really do struck me. Never did I expect things like this to happen. Although I'm well aware that death occurs everyday, but it caught me by surprise all the same.

风有不测之风云，人有旦夕之祸福。我真的体会到了，隐约地怕了，不只为我而怕。


PPS: When you see someone and you just want to turn and walk the opposite direction, but rationale tells you to continue walking on. It's like freaking out and screaming inside of me, but all I can do is to appear calm and cool. Once again, we are strangers.

Friday, 3rd February 2012. Let's not talk about the weather anymore.

Dear Diary,

Hi, yesterday, I was really stupid. But I had fun making a big fool out of myself.

Today is.. okay I guess. But I think I'm pms-ing. So bored of everything, especially SC and band.

Kthxbye.

Ohwell, initially, I did have the intention to post. But I realise my mood just ruins everything.

Tuesday, 31st January 2012. Rainy.

Dear Diary,

Basically, school sucks now. But yesterday was like the funnest ever cause physics and chemistry practical is awesomeeee! And it's even more awesome cause practicals are usually boringgg.

So for chemistry, we were basically testing out the speed of reaction bring about by the change in surface area. So it's like putting magnesium with hydrochloric acid and recording the temperature change by using a temperature sensors and data logger. So the first fun part is using the electronic balance, I don't know why but feels so damn cool and professional when I know how to use it properly then can teach Qingxi, Yihong and Yugshen (Sorry for being so childish). Then the data logger is like so confusing but amazing! Yeah but I kept pressing the 'start' button before the rest got ready to start the reaction. Super funny!

And for physics, we were doing an experiment on lenses. So yeah, we are supposed to see a triangle forming on the screen. And as I move it further and further away from the torch, the triangle became like so tinie weenie omg so cute HAHAHAHAHA!

Dear diary, once again, I apologise for being so kiddish today. But finally, something fun to share about in school, I can't miss it. HE. HE. HE.

Friday, 27th January 2012. I don't know what kind of weather is this.

Dear Diary,

Today, life suck. Had this rubbish mood since morning, and bet I bore my friends out. I kinda wish Zuying was there, cause I think she will understand. Manting and Elaine didn't even realise anything wrong.

The urge was even stronger after band cause it sucked too, it sucked bigbigbig time. Today, we got this new piece, which is meant to be played during SIBF in July, and had an hour of sectionals. So, we came back with rhythm problems and KK was frustrated. Then, he finally admitted that he don't like our batch. But it was so obvious he didn't even need to say it and I hate him for that cause I used to love him so much as our conductor. He was like, "Other times, I just have to go through 4,5 times and people get it. Now, people are still repeating the same mistakes after 9, 10 times!" And, "This is the most disappointing batch I've seen. And the main problem lies with the seniors." Who else? Obviously you are talking about my batch. I swear I felt like crying, and was angry at the same time. I mean, yes it is our responsibility to take care of the band but you can't blame us entirely!

Today just, ugh!

And, I still can't really make up my mind if I should go for SIBF. On one hand, I don't feel like going cause it will be super tiring and I don't wanna see Kk's face anymore. Just get over with it. But on the other hand, I wonder if I will miss music after this, or is keith able to cope. Besides, Kk talk like as if he don't need us, what "The sec4 & 5s, you don't like it, just don't play. The sec2 & 3s, you are playing this". I swear it felt aweful and makes me want to join all the more and prove him wrong. Sigh, dilemma.

Ps. It's not that I'm always happy, it's just that I'm glad I've came out from the worse.

Thursday, 26th January 2012. Windy/Sunny.

Dear Diary,

Hi, I feel like blogging tonight but then I'm so sleepy I can't think.

Anyway, today was LEARNING JOURNEY DAY to the Botanic Gardens! Weeeeeeeee. And yes I want a camera cause I suddenly find the not so talented talent in me.

OK, I'm tired. Rahrahrah! Kthxbye. HAHAHAHAHA. Shit, I'm going crazy on my blog ._.


Haven't listened to this song for soo long.

Monday, 23rd January 2012. Rainy!

Dear Diary,

It has been.. 22 days since I last posted. Mainly because I'm lazy, and I don't really have the time. Almost a month have passed, it's like in a blink of an eye, and TADAH! It's Chinese new year already, and nearing the end of January.

January is quite an eventful month for me this year. Quite a lot of things going on. New school term, OCMC'12, CCA exploration, birthday, CNY celebration etc. As usual, I'm probably too lazy to go into details with all the different occassions. But, going to feed you with some stories of mine, so.. here goes:

Starting of school.
Bascially school still feels like any other year in Riverside ( so far, still, the worse has yet to come). First day of school was just adminstrative and boringboring stuff. I ended up in the first row of seats, soso not used at first. Then, change of some subject teachers and MrGoh is now goneee. Well, at least, I guess we got better teachers now (: Ms Hesley for English, Mdm Shen LF for HCL, Ms Tan CH (Seriously? Life's gonna be hell soon) for physics and Mrs tan for math (I'm gonna speak so slow but not bore you to death by spicing my speeches up with some weird ancient teacher). That's all.. I think?
Oh, and so far, we don't really have a lot of homework, YET. But I keep sinking into a freaking terrible mood everytime lesson starts, guess I'm not ready yet.

OH AND BEFFORE I FORGET, I'm continuing HCL this year. Got an A1 plus distinction. WHICH is a veryveryvery shocking news cause my oral is like unusually lousy be it Chinese or English and I was sososo afraid it'd pull my marks down like hell and land me in a grade-three state. And then I saw Layping going up on stage to retrieve her good results and Mingwei looking at me as I receive my results, like as if the answer will be written on my face.
Intended to go look for Layping after I got back my results, but was chased back to class :(

OCMC'12.
Was placed in a group with people whom I'm certainly not familiar with and don't know, except for Charmian Kua & Jiajing who are good friends and maybe Xueyi too. I'm actually ok with that, unfamiliar faces, more friends! Just to mention, it's my first year as an OGL, and I'm posted to class 1/8.
It was not too good initially and I had this sudden paranoid feeling that I'd do a lousy job, probably a shadow I've acquired from last year's SC. It's just me. Cause everything turned out fine and then soo great on the second day of the camp. I was even more assured when Vanitha came up to me and said, "You've wasted your talent for the past 3 years".
And, lucky or not, Yongtat happened to be my class' alumni, together with Andy. Well at least he didn't disturb me that much cause he was in-charge of another group.
Campfire night was the best part ever!

CCA exploration.
Actually, there isn't anything much to talk about. Just that we totally change the whole band's sitting arrangement for it, and the band store was totally opened up, which means more doors to close and higher chances of me breaking Wafir's leg. Then Kktan can slide open the music room window and pop his head out to scare and talk to the sec ones.
My sec ones were really quite supportive though (:

Birthday.
WAS GREAAAATTT! Shall leave it for next time, or... to be kept in my head. Too lazy to elaborate now.

Chinese New Year Celebration.
Everything was boring and I didn't get to see the Modern dancers perform. BUT! My beloved 1/8 made my day once again, other then constantly waving to me throughout the whole celebartion, they gave me a present too! It's like a paper bag with half the class's note to me and a little gift from Joey, Priscilla and Stepfanie. They are like super cute, such a big carrier and then... a few pieces of chocolate inside. Then another sec one stuff her sweets into my hand from the imposter god of fortune and I obviously know who he is. It was nothing big and extravagant, but still, sweet. Fir is jealous~!

It's almost one in the morning. Should sleep. Weee, New Year is here!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

Sunday, 1st January 2012. Sunny and hot!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ER.. ME?


Dear Diary,

Wee! It's 2012 already, so happy. I don't know why but I always love New Years it makes me feel so fresh. Like a new start and I can do things afresh and set them in proper again cause I once again screwed up my previous year as I get more and more lazy. HAHAHA! Excited me.

Oh anyway, yesterday was awesome. No not the countdown but... it's nice to spend New Year countdown with a bunch of goodgood seniors. On the way, Yongtat had so much fun disturbing me. Hmmph! I'm gonna complain to Grace, another lovely senior! But it's okay, I got my revenge hehehuhuhoho!
Yesterday at Marina Barrage was total crap. Stupid pan-faced panda and non-existing counting down. In the end, the entire crowd's attention was diverted to sky-rising lanterns and beautiful fireworks at Marina Bay Sands. We should have gone there, to do a proper countdown. And Layping was there! She wanted to meet me but I guess the network worldwide just crashed.

Ah okay, I suddenly run out of words.

Saturday, 31st December 2011. Sunny.

Dear Diary,

Finally, a Sunny day. But actually, I'd prefer a rainy day. Sorry to be so contradicting but I'm sweating like 684523804523. Totally spoil my mood for doing homework cause I intended to be a good girl today since I'm going for countdown tonight! And Andrew TAN asked me out tomorrow. Should I go? Or should I be a good kid? Hmm! But 2011's ending, which means holiday's ending so shouldn't I enjoy myself? Besides, tomorrow is 1st JANUARY 2012. I should enjoy a new year rightright? Hohoho. *Dilemma*

I'M COUNTING DOWN @ MARINA BARRAGE TONIGHT. Woo my first countdown ever so excited! <3 It'd be just another boring, "Oh it's a new year" but was on Facebook yesterday and was talking to Yongtat and Grace. And Yongtat asked Mingwei to ask me out together with Grace and himself. And Mingwei asked me to invite. So us plus Pohgeok and Jiachyi and Xiangxin my favourite seniors in band!
And Layping was so jealous cause everybody loves me and she scared they will snatch me away hehehuhuhahahoho I feel like a lucky little girl. Anyway, tonight's gonna be a BLAST!

2012! HERE. I. COME.

Oh speaking of New Year. Everybody has New Year Resolutions right? Actually, I don't really have one cause I think I'll be too tired to follow through when school reopens. But this year, I hope to study hard, play hard, smile hard and laugh hard!

I can't believe I'm turning 16 next year (which is by the way in a few hours' time)! Time flies like 68745023343146345.

#1 Challenge of the year 2012: Wake up early. (Ok this is disastrous)

Maybe I should do a reflection of this year, should I? But not now cause I need to bathe a be prepared to go out later I'm a stinky little child now. Bye and have a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

P.s. Actually, the title should be "Are you kidding me it's 2012!" but I think it doesn't apply, YET.

"Don't waste your life trying to impress other people. Do what you love, love what you do."
I finally understand.



P.s. I think everybody likes my handshake HAHAHA #justshowingoff

Tuesday, 27th December 2011. Cloudy.

Dear Diary,

I'm back from christmas! Celebrated with friends on 23rd & 24th. And had a dinner at home with family and cousins (: 25th was just a stay-at-home-and-watch-TV day though. Leonard's back from a 13 day adventure. He looks handsome with tan skin and copper-colour hair, I was like who's that? Just saying.

Bought my books, JUST.

Damn, coughing so much my voice's changing and I ache all over. Just don't tell me it's another throat inflammation. Besides, school's reopening soon. Not looking forward. Homework undone and revision not touched. Next year would be a year of intensive studying and CCA only step down in late July for me.

Gonna miss meeting again today tsk. Gotta jiayou, we have less than 3 months now.

Not much to tell, just felt like posting. Hehehe. Kthxbye (:


And I won't forget you, don't regret you.
And the hardest thing I've had to do is live without you.
And I wonder why we both walked away.

Specially like this phrase.



Friday, 23rd December 2011. Rainy.

Dear Diary,

It seems to be raining forever.

Anyway, I'm back home! From Penang. Yayy. Took off on 20th morning and I was back yesterday night. The trip there wasn't too bad after all. Both my sisters fell sick though. I'm the strong one *Shows muscles* Hehehuhuhahahoho! And I didn't know that we have to take plane to Penang.

First day was kinda relaxed. Was drove around, food and rested in the hotel. It's like a family suite with two rooms, and living room plus dining place. In the room, we open the door to the balcony and tada! - that's the beach. Then there's like a television in each room and one in the living hall. IT WAS AWESOME. And did you ever realise that 'awesome' is being spelled as Awe-so-me. Anyway, that was after lunch served with superb roasted chicken rice.
Watched television and caught a nap before going out out for dinner. Went to this place called Gurney. There's this outdoor hawker centre which we decided to dine there. But it started drizzling when our food was done and we had to abandon it to seek shelter. So yeah, went to the nearby mall to dine on not-so-nice HongKong restaurant probably because I was still thinking of my Yang Tau Fu. And shopped for souvenir!

Second day was more of a Heritage tour. It was surprisingly interesting and not boring. I like! Another souvenir for myself. Penaraakan and blue mansion. That night, we went back to Gurney to have food again. Yay! Second night was yet another toss-and-turn night and another weird dream. I have no idea why I'm dreaming about guys in my class. Eeks, I sound like a... a... whatever I don't know!

We went for another tour at the temple and lunched and shopped before heading to the airport. Picked up Teddy's cousin on the way back - it was probably looking for my teddy in Singapore. Blah blah blah so on and so fo and I'm homeee!

P.s. Meeting Edina and Shimin today evening to celebrate christmas!


Whoever feels this way should be my boyfriend in the future. HAHAHA.

Sunday, 18th December 2011. Rainy.

Dear Diary,

I can't sleep and I miss band :( I miss my saxophone too.

2012 shall be my last year with RSSB. And I probably wouldn't join band after Secondary school cause it will be super tedious and I'm not pro enough. #nostalgic. Howhow.
I shall spend my last year in band fruitfully. And Rhapsody Night 2012 shall probably the time of my life. I would miss music after that (:

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind; for me it happens all the time.
It's a quater after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
- Need you now Lady Antebella

I'm addicted.

I wanna spend christmas with friends. But no one seems free on 25th. Advance and belated celebration ain't that exciting :(
Then the next big event would be New Year count down. Bet I'd be stuck at home again. Sigh :/

Band was never my passion. But the experience was certainly worthy.

Sunday, 17th December 2011. Rainy.

Dear Diary,

Finally, I'm back from band camp.

After 4 days of bathing in cold water and sleeping on hard floors, shivering under my covers, I'm home. But the weird thing about band camp is, no matter how many scoldings and tough practices we go through, it still turns out to be a BLAST! Wake up, breakfast, practise, lunch, practise, dinner, practise, shower, supper, lights out, That's practically our entire routine during the 4D3N.

So, how much can I talk about? Except that it was tiring and tedious and mentally draining and my lips hurt like hell I think my teeth's gonna drop anytime soon. Be glad I didn't get sausage-lips.

This year's camp was the least physical one. Previous years, we would what? Run at least 20 rounds along the classroom block. I remember once we even had to run around in school, clap our hands above our heads, and shout; "We can do it!". We wouldn't stop until kk nods his head. Those were tiring times.
This year we just sat inside the music room till my butt hurts and play till my lips swell. I don't understand why, as the years go by, kk becomes more and more lenient. He gives lesser punishments. Honestly speaking, I wish he would do that again. It really brings out the band spirit, we were really bonded and all hyper during meal times and cheer like nobody's business. That's my band. This year, the cheer was ... I feel so no face. Fine, maybe it was partly because we are really in need of time.
Ok, but then the punishments and stuff were really tiring. P.s. I think kk is getting old. He like don't even have the mood to scold anymore, don't wake people up like he used to.

So this year, slept with Jo, Zuying, Nazhi, Najah, Izhar and Praveen and my section mates cause I feel bad about abandoning them for my friends. He! Poor Jo and Zuying and Jengwen still have to study for retest. Life is good without retest. And we are a bad batch. Boys & girls ain't even supposed to step into each others' bunk but even the majors and exco broke that rule :/

Eventually, Crystal decided to play with us during concert. Yay!
And I suddenly realise, yesterday would most probably be the last time we get to play ocean glow again. Regretted not playing good enough. That wasn't our standard. We'd all miss it dearly. Speech day was probably the best performance of tone poem we ever had. We gave kk the best performance he ever had <3

As for this year's concert, I seriously don't think it's that nice. But I shall blame it on the lack of time and inefficient sectionals. BUT at least the march-in kicked in a brilliant start to the concert, we are like so cool please! And the audiences seemed awed by our gimmicks and use of props. Everybody starting standing up and taking pictures and video. If only the music was great, everything would be PERFECT. BUT, it's okay, there's still SIBF next year.


And we will blast the audience for the last time ever in RSSB.



Friday, 9th November 2011.

Dear Diary,

It's has been quite some time since I last posted. Didn't really have much to talk about.

Class chalet was not bad. Not bad cause I like my friends but sometimes it gets boring. I really need to learn how to cycle. And I got to bball again after like so long.

Cut my hair yesterday. It turned out ok. But went haywire after I bathe. Blame it on my waves ._.

Band camp in 4 days' time. Then we shall all jiayou during concert. *Cross fingers* Let it turn out great please!

Hungry at this hour. Should I eat?


I go back to December all the time.